Flatmate Night

I cooked bacon today at work, and it was way too much.. aehuaheua.. so I’m takin’ home a full bowl of it. Thought of having dinner together all the 3 of us, but Ana would dine out tonight.
So it was just Nadya and me.
She’s Belarussian, the one who speaks fluent Deutsch, and she’s just 19 !! aheuaheua.. anyway, we.. ehm well I prepared almost everything, hurt my toe by droppin a can of green peas LOL, we don’t have a can opener, so i used knife ! """^^
Steamed potato, green peas, spinach, bacon, and Thai chillisauce. 

ehehehe.. It was a goood meal, really, i said thank U God for I can still having meal taste this good.. ehehe yeaah, gratitude on small things we have..

After that, we watched Step Up in my room, it was my 2nd time, I love Chaning, he’
cute!! as well  in She’s The Man..

Hmmm never did
this before.. it’s kinda fun, but feels not that comfy.. aehauhea.. I just need to get use to it, should I..

FruitS of The Day

Fruits every day now, any fruits will do !!
This is what I had today.. ^^ tried the strawberries wif cold honey.. Nice !!!

Too Serious Too Soon

J’s Resolutions 2008

Won’t say I’m late, I just start on the 3^rd month
of the year..

I forgot if last year I made resolutions, but I think I’ve
made it through Paris and here..

So should I say What a
year!! J

NeXt in pursuing happiness, would be me …

1. being the new me

I like this new version of me. Fully regenerated after everything I’ve
been through, and I know I’m much stronger and wiser, outgoing and cheerful,
tralala trilil, …

No more MissTery ? ehehe just
sometimes now.. just sometimes

2. surviving this internshiT

4 months to go.  I’m not having Typhus,
so no worry, I’m sooo gonna eat right from now on.. Promise ! ^^

3. mastering French

as much as I speak French every day, I know it’s not close to enough..
Grammaire, literature (thanks to Wolfie), native friends, and of course I’m
doing my homework

4. learning Deutsch

in anyway, self- studying is not easy. I’m lucky to have few teachers
over the inet though, not mention the fluent-speaking-Deutsch
russian gal next room.

Or maybe, German here I come…!!! ???

5. saying NO to partying

it’s fun, I must admit. I’ve known what I’d do when I pass my limit..

No no.. nooo more..

I’ll just stick to wine and jazz.. (red wine and white now)J

6. using the most out of my time

for it’s the only thing I don’t have a lot. Do things a.s.a.p., make sth
useful out of it.

Other than that, I’m just trying to have a life on these months. And
somehow, now I can’t wait what life’s gonna bring me.

7. Getting the ideal job

Still a bit blur about this, should it be sth I think good enough for me,
or should it be sth that I love to do, or should it be sth that challenging and
new.. Or maybe all of them..

And it gotta pays good money too though aehauheuaheua..

So we’ll see, I’m not in such a hurry anyway ^^

8.  Knowing
more about Photography

I just love taking pics..! Got the thing, learning by doing.

I
know I should’ve read for basics, and ask around for tips. I will surely make
time for that.

Time Will Tell

I seek for
that familiar face
In the crowd of names i found you
I dug memories we never have
But from the present that counts

To touch you I may not
To have you I could not
Say the pray, if I may ask
…..

~ Jennifer  T.
~

I’m Pushin’, I Do !!

It’s just occurred to me, how was it until I am like me now..
Here, doing this things i thought I’d love, having this kind of life, wif these people hovering around me, end up knowing some more truth which can’t be less true in such ways that were just overwhelming.
Of course time does fly in a blink, but as much I remember I was this girl who used to have a life.
Maybe this is the actual life, and the one I had was just the vague one,
.. oder ?
Especially this first year of my breakout, every time I think I’ve had too much -  it’s just never stop.. no..

It’s like being this whole new me. coz when I compare with the old me, there are just a lot..
Funny when I said few times that I’m still me. in fact that I’m not whatsoever.
People does change, only I didn’t realize it that’d be this much until I have had it myself.

Was it too easy and comfortable ? Or did I push me around too much ?
Coz it’s not like that here, even when I push me way out of my limit, they just never be satisfied..

Believe it or not, karma does exist.
Mine’s completed. I just have to stop it, even tho I had to lose the golden one.
I just wish it won’t happened to you.. as you were part of it.
Wish you love, wish you happiness.
Still, I tend to keep, though for this I really have let go.
Good luck, hein..
JBU

So i don’t know if it’s sooner or later than I’ve said before.. if i continue living like this i’m gonna have typhus . and that woman, my supervisor, haiks.. she annoys me really really bad. I’m not sure she even noticed if I’ve been sick, I even look sick. And she kept me working without break till 3pm, that was after I insisted. That crazy woman..
Recalling those time of supervising in kitchen, aheuaheuha.. I was maybe being a really nice and helpful supervisor.. no wonder they love me :p

Living here really change me, I realized that, but not really sure how much or in what way I do. I stand up more, I said NO more often than just accept things that don’t go my way, and I just do what I want or need to do, par contre je m’en foe ! aheuhaeuaheua.. It’s just how things work around here, and I’m goin wif the stream.

Reflections

Look around, and you’ll see millions reflections of what could’ve happened to you, or what you could’ve been, and or maybe what you’ll be.
Maybe it’s true, if we’ve got a lot of nice pictures in our head, there’s nothing to be sorry about in the end of our life. It might not be for forever, memories fade away as time goes by, but somehow the feelings it’s given stays. Even just short scenes of  every blissful moment in your life.
No, it’s never about how many years you’ve past, or how long you’ve lived..
Coz when you realize, how many life you’ve brought or how much love you’ve added in,  those people who truly cares bout you or set of smiling faces you know so damn well , stories where you were the leading actor or those times of pride when you were the centre of everything, …
Then that should be enough.

J’ai Peur a l’Amour

Had been a great weeks, best since I’m out here. It feels like home, when i felt being so loved.
Somehow I don’t need to take years to understand, to accept, or to feel so attached.
This is when I hate myself for being so fragile again, when I’ve got so
afraid if this is really more than just an affection.. sigh..
Comes to think of it, it’s karma.. isn’t it.. the circle is completed now.
Owh Jenn.. you’re wanting what’s been taken out, so just walk the talk, hein..
Agh, mais pourquoi pourquoi pourquoi je peux pas arreter de lui penser,,merde,,
Ce n’est pas le mien tant pis, ce n’est pas disponible
Ce n’est pas le temps, ce n’est pas ma chance
Ce sont pas encore.. ?

Aiiiih….